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We were losing our way, In a mundane day to day. As I was trying to throw it all away, You keep reminding me why I stay. I'd be lost and broken without you, Manic, and most definitely out of control. It's not your fault when I am sad, And when I'm mad, it's usually my own self-loathing. I feel like I've held us back from the growth Necessary to fulfill our oaths, Traditions I use to just roll me eyes to, By all the thoughts I couldn't share with you. These recent life changes, left wanting for something new, But why did I have to think that it shouldn't include you. A few more beautiful nights like last, reminders that we're both capable of evolving, together. maybe even possibly, forever. We'll see, as long as I can keep up with the honesty. I hate writing of love, As I feel like it's a concept I've never truly grasped. And on this first cold morning of the season, We could have just stayed in bed all day. Continuing all the words we've been neglecting to say.

You can say that I'm a casualty. I'm just a product of a relationship that I never dreamed of. A typical American tragedy. Lost and alone inside, opposite of what it seems, When you see our pics on social media. I can't help but seek out stress. Burden after burden resolved. I need some weight to carry. Yet, this emptiness, a mystery unsolved. I am trapped in my own life I refuse to feel alive The past is always here For me to hide behind. When I wake up in the morning I know I wasn't sleeping Just seething from the mundane And to the simple fact that we are the same Yet, we share no common interests, To keep us entertained. Just two lonely lives together, For what feels like forever.

No one knows me at all, But I can tell by the way that you smile. My lies must feel real, after all. How many more miles, Are left in this empty cocoon, Before I wake up? Scared of who I really am I don't believe my eyes, Baby blues, The easiest to hide behind. When I reach out to others, To share my real thoughts. It feels like I'm cheating, On something we're not. Yes, you can read my words I share, But I don't know how much you believe Of my existential mis-identity. I do have love for you. But I can't love you, If I don't love myself. And you seem content. With this status quo. And I'm too scared to try and be bold. We'll live this life together it seems, Never really knowing what could have, Been there for either of us. The guilt eats me away, day by day. We've built a unique life, Complacent and complicit, Traveling along the road of contentment. But haven't a clue who you even are. And all I've fed are lies to you. And I will be your prisoner, As you are also mine. How

My mind is on my own. I don't mean to be unkind. I don't mean to be shy, But I just wanna get high. Get high just to be alive. If you're gonna fly tonight, No matter where you go, I'll be there to catch you when you fall. And when the sun doesn't shine, As you open your eyes, And you know you don't need time, To see the world and not be blind. And all the times we watched the world pass by, And all the little white lies, They'll follow you in the sunlight, Where the shadows hide out of sight. In the valley of silence, There is a place I can call my own. And I will sing my song. And I'll sing my heart out. I will make the most of my time, As it keeps me alive. I see the danger of all the confines of our minds, And I'm controlled by the tides. Those serendipitous highs, Are torn apart into pieces. As the fathomless lows, Spiral me out of control. I can't control my soul. All that my love unfolds, All that my hate beholds, And all that I have tried to hide, Is a feeling that I

So content, yet so absurd, But still I struggle to hear a word. Try to find a voice, but still I feel the thirst Of anything that ought to hurt. The common sense of simple words, Delivered up the perfect verse. But the truth of the matter is, My timing was just another curse. I hear it again and again. In a world where the memories, Of a world deep inside me, Are just reflections of a boy Lost and on his knees. Like a prisoner of grief, All alone in the streets. So alone I can barely breathe, Searching for the slightest relief. This false pretense I put on show, Keeps me struggling to find my soul. And leaves me wondering, If I even have a future to unfold.

This life is a timeless maze Everyone trying to find their way And its just something you deranged Because you decide to change From a world so strange There's no time to waste Take a look around and see Your future is not what it used to be But it doesn't matter anyway Because even if it did It wouldn't make sense anymore Nothing stays the same Till the end of our days In the back of our minds All the times you tried to hide Will just haunt you from inside To chase a dream I never really thought That it would be so hard To witness how it devolves To what a mirror revolves As I go around and round Of all the ups and downs All I ever wanted was to get away

A context of the mind and life of the masses From the darkness to the dust All I have to do is trust And show what I see in this world on the same drugs Always looking for something that won't change It looks like you can start to live without me It's not like we fell in love Don't you think it's time we made a break for us And what we got left has gone wrong for us What we got left is too long for us to trust Too many lives are thrown in the dirt Too many dreams have been miss-served I've been like this since the first time we met And I can't help but forget And I can't help but think That I don't need you now And I can't keep around The world is upside down And now I'm feeling more alone When you're home and here with me It just makes me nervous But I don't wanna front I don't wanna be the one you need I just wanna breathe Wake me up when I'm all alone I try to cope it's such a joke It's the thing that I hate the most When you love me so much

Deception of the human race A foreign state of state Been around the world trying to escape But the whole world's been misplaced When all the others go to waste It's just an empty space With every step I take I'm shaped I find myself in another place But there's a storm inside my head And somewhere in the dark I hear the whispering in my ears The words you never said And a whisper of my tragic fears I've been holding back for years For all my life I've been crying And I'm sick of all the lying The madness is inside my veins Consuming me all the same With this pain I'm ashamed Of the way I stayed and the way I played I will never be the same Every lesson that I've ever faked Is a lie I can't escape From the madness of the human race

Awake in the night like a machine A single spark that never sleeps A magic song that never peaked And I didn't know you were listening I'm not sure what it means I'm not sure what to say I'm not sure who I am I'm not sure where it ends Feeling like a broken record Feeling like I'm on replay There is something wrong with me I am just a puppet on a string It doesn't really matter where it all began I see the world in different ways And I can see the colors change And I can feel the pain when the sun starts to shine again But I will wait until I go to sleep To find my own place at least To find another place to breathe Another place I've never been before I'm not sure where I'm going I'm not sure you'll be there I'm not sure if I care I'm not sure about anything, anymore

I wanna make it okay I wanna make myself believe That everything I see is just another dream I don't want to wake up I don't want to wake up I just want to get out But I can't seem to get away And I know there's something wrong And I don't know how it happened And I don't know how I got here But I'm feeling like I'm someone else I don't know who I am But when I think about it I'll run away and hide I don't want to wake up I don't want to wake up Because the truth is gone And I don't care about anything I don't know what to do But I guess I'm gonna try Cause I've got nowhere to go And I'm running out of time To leave this all behind I don't want to wake up I don't want to wake up If I could just pretend That all the things I couldn't see Are always things that could never be Like what you can never be And what you cannot see I want to wake up I want to start over again Who wants to live life on the edge Is it the end or the beginning